Nicole Kidman Says She Was "To Be Seen and Not Heard"

Nicole Kidman is painting a less than happy picture of her marriage to Tom Cruise.

She tells Glamour Magazine she felt oppressed during the marriage and that her role was to support her super-star husband and "to be seen and not heard."

"I felt I became a star only by association. I didn't think [my early movies] were very good, which is why I would always cower in the background," Kidman said.

Kidman and Cruise met when she was just 22 years old. She says her insecurities got the better of her.

"I thought, I don't deserve to be here. We would go to the Oscars and I would think, I'm here to support him, Kidman said. "I felt it was my job to put on a beautiful dress and to be seen and not heard."

While she says she has no bitterness towards her ex, she says she is happier now than she has ever been.

"I'm in a place of gratitude and humility. I touch wood every day. The journey of life - we all go through it," Kidman told the magazine.

Nicole says it was her marriage to country singer and fellow Australian Keith Urban and the birth of her daughter, Sunday Rose, that have brought her true happiness.

"You have love, you lose love, you find new love. To have love again is a beautiful thing."