janetbazaar.jpg For the first time since her brother's death, Janet Jackson is speaking out about how she's handling her grief and how she plans to move forward with her life.

In a heartbreaking new interview, Janet tells Harper's Bazaar that she's still having a hard time accepting that her brother is gone, and at one point, she nearly broke down when she talked about the late pop icon. "My brother is, I mean was..." she trailed off, stared at the floor and then continued, "You have to forgive me, because it's really hard to believe he's passed."

Janet added that she can't even bear to watch the news. "It will drive you crazy. People can have rhinoceros skin, but there's a point when something's going to hurt you," she says. "Not everyone is stone, stone. I haven't watched the news in weeks. I had to ask my chef, 'How's Obama doing?' I haven't read a newspaper."

Janet recalls the last time she saw her brother, which was on May 14 at a family get together. "We had so much fun that day. We kept calling each other after and saying how great it was." Janet reveals that she's been keeping herself busy with work, and she recently spent a long weekend at the beach. "It was the first time I had to myself since Michael passed, the first time I could get away since all of that," says the Grammy-winning singer. "Work helps focus all of that energy on something that is of value to you."

When asked about her brother's children, as well as Paris' teary farewell to her father at the televised memorial on July 7, Janet said, "I was really proud. People said to me that Michael's daughter speaking really gave them a sense of how he was as a father, in her words. Paris is incredibly smart; they are all so smart. She's a sweet girl. The kids are doing well. They're with all their cousins; that family love will keep them going."

Janet talks about marriage and children, and she tells the mag that as far as having her own kids, she's open to adoption, but "if I'm really supposed to have kids, it will happen, if that's God's plan for me."

Aww, hugs Janet! We miss MJ too.