Fantasia Barrino On Suicide Attempt: "I Knew Exactly What I Was Doing"

Fantasia Barrino is speaking out about her recent overdose, saying that it was no accident and that the American Idol winner "wanted out."

"I didn't have any fight in me. I didn't care about anything. I just wanted out," she says in a new interview for VH1's Behind the Music.

Barrino was rushed to the hospital earlier this month after overdosing on aspirin and sleep aid following the news that she was named in a lawsuit by the jilted wife of Barrino's married boyfriend -- and that there was a sex tape that would prove Barrino was the other woman.

Brian Dickens told us that, "She was dehydrated and exhausted at the time" she took the pills.

But Fantasia says taking enough meds to land her in the hospital was no accident. "I just sat in the closet and looked at the mirror and took all the pills in the bottle. I wanted to go to sleep and just be at peace. I knew exactly what I was doing. You can't accidentally take a whole bottle of pills."

Fantasia's Behind The Music airs on the network Tuesday, the same day her album, Back To Me is released.