Demi Moore: "I Have Had A Love-Hate Relationship With My Body"

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Demi Moore covers the February issue of Harper’s Bazaar, and after looking at these shots of the 49-year-old actress, ex-husband Ashton Kutcher has to be kicking himself for cheating on her!

Demi was interviewed by longtime pal Amanda De Cadenet, and the ladies chat about everything from their upcoming Lifetime series The Conversation to Demi's guilty pleasures (watching Jersey Shore and sleeping in the nude!).

Of course, the interview also touches on some more serious issues, and Demi reveals that she has struggled to find peace with her body image. "I have had a love-hate relationship with my body," she said. "When I'm at the greatest odds with my body, it's usually because I feel my body's betraying me, whether that's been in the past, struggling with my weight and feeling that I couldn't eat what I wanted to eat, or that I couldn't get my body to do what I wanted it to do."

Demi continues, "I think I sit today in a place of greater acceptance of my body, and that includes not just my weight but all of the things that come with your changing body as you age to now experiencing my body as extremely thin - thin in a way that I never imagined somebody would be saying to me, “You’re too thin, and you don’t look good.” I find peace when I don’t see my body as my enemy, when I step back and have appreciation and look at all that my body has done for me."

On her fears, Demi says, "I used to think that what scared me was the idea of being abandoned until someone said to me, ‘Only children can be abandoned. Adults can’t be abandoned because we have a choice. Children don’t have a choice.’ So I started to rethink. ‘Okay, it’s not that. What’s the underlying thread that really scares me?’ I think what scares me is not having the courage to reach my full potential."