Kristen Stewart is getting candid about her 2012 split from Robert Pattinson, which happened two years after her affair with her married Snow White and the Huntsman director, Rupert Sanders, went public.

The actress spoke to the Daily Beast about the infamous break up while promoting her new futuristic love story, Equals, which also stars Jennifer Lawrence's ex Nicholas Hoult.

"It was incredibly painful," she said. "Ugh, f**king kill me."

In the candid interview, the often sullen superstar talked about drawing on the raw emotions of that heartbreaking split for her new role and that she hoped the love story would inspire others to believe that love could happen again despite past heartbreak.

The 25-year-old told the publication, "If you've been hurt—you know when you've broken up with someone and you look at someone walking down the street holding hands and think, 'Ugh, give it a f**kin' year. Let me know how you feel in a year, ugh, I don't' believe in that. … Well if we did our jobs right, then it would be to remind you that you can definitely get back to that, and how hard, amazing, and life-fulfilling those feelings were in the very beginning."

Despite the scandal, break up, makeup and then break up again with R-Patz, Kristen has clearly found those life-fulfilling feelings again. The actress has moved on with Alicia Cargile, a visual effects producer, whom she has been dating for a year.

Kristen's mother Jules Stewart seemed to confirm the relationship to the Sunday Mirror in June, saying, “I’ve met Kristen’s new girlfriend, I like her. What’s not to accept? She’s a lovely girl.” However, Jules later told Us Weekly that she never said that statement.