We're glad she made it through to the other side.

Yolanda Hadid revealed in her new memoir Believe Me: My Battle With The Invisibility Of Lyme Disease that she contemplated suicide during her struggle with the illness.

The former Real Housewives of Beverly Hills star was diagnosed with the "severe, chronic" condition in 2012 after a Belgian doctor discovered an active infection in her brain, and it only got worse as she began to experience joint pain, exhaustion, insomnia and anxiety. It got so bad at one point, she was left basically bedridden!

During a trip to Florida with then-husband David Foster, the Dutch beauty wished her life would end so she could escape the pain she was in.

"I take off my clothes and slip into the dark blue ocean, which is cool and comforting. The waves gently wash over my naked body, and I can feel the current tugging at me. Tears pour out of my eyes, roll across my cheeks, and meld with the salt water as I try to still my mind to become one with the water’s ebb and flow," she wrote in her book.

"God please just take me away in a wave. I can’t live like this one more day. Please carry my body away. I just want to disappear. My next thought is a clear image of my three children. It shifts my consciousness immediately and that’s the only thing that keeps me from letting myself drift and drown," she recalled.

Gigi and Bella's mom has a newfound appreciation for life these days, and she feels like she is finally in remission.

"As difficult as these past five years have been, I am so grateful that this journey has led me to living in the light. I have had it all and lost it all, only to realize that less is more, money can’t buy you health or happiness, and one day at a time is good enough," she explained.

What a nightmare!