We already heard some of what Rihanna told Diane Sawyer on
Good Morning America yesterday morning, and now here are even more details from the night of her horrific beating and how she's handled the trauma over the past 9 months.
On Chris' mood on the night of the attack, Rihanna said, "It wasn't the same person that says I love you. It was not those... eyes. He had ... no soul in his eyes. Just blank ...He was clearly blacked out. There was no person when I looked at him ... All I kept thinking all the time: When is it going to stop? When it is going to stop?"
Rihanna tells Diane she saw a text from another woman and that was how the confrontation began. "I caught him in a lie. And he wouldn't tell the truth ... I was being more annoyed at that point in our relationship he had to lie about something so stupid. I couldn't take that he kept lying to me. And he couldn't take that I wouldn't drop it. And ... it was ugly."
Diane asks Rihanna if it was true that her mouth filled up with blood at one point and she nodded. "I was bleeding. I was swollen in my face," she said. "So there was no way of me getting home, except for, my next option was to get out of the car and walk. Start walking in a gown, in a bloody face. So I really don't know what my plan was. I didn't have a plan. That whole night was not part of my plan."
Rihanna said that she still cares about Chris and that she wants him to have a good life and a successful career, but she points out that he had some serious anger issues that needed to be dealt with. "Initially you start thinking, what could I have possibly have said to make him hit me? Eventually you're like, you know ... stop. Stop. Stop. Ask yourself. There's nothing you can do or say to make somebody do that to you," she said. "That's on them. And ... I just knew he had a problem. I knew he had a problem. He had a temper. He needed to get some help. And ... and he did."
After the incident, Rihanna did reunite with Chris, but she says she never forgave him. "I just said to him, 'I can't do this.' I resented him. I resented him so much. And I always put the tough face on and try to, I can do anything face, and just try to play it off. But he knew. He knew it. He kept asking me, 'You hate me, don't you? You hate me,'" she told Diane. "And I would lie and I would say, 'No, no. And ... I did hate him. ... Everything about him annoyed me. So finally ... I just said, we can't ... we can't do this. I cannot continue to do this."
On the leaked police photo which shows her brutally battered face, Rihanna said, "Who likes seeing their face like that? ...I feel humiliated. I get angry, all over again, every time I see it. The whole thing plays back in my head. So I don't like to see it."
Rihanna continued, "I don't have a desire at all to be with him ... I can't see how we ... would get back together, but I'm also not God and I can't predict the future ... I knew I had to do this in order to move on for me and in order for my fans to move on with me because it would always be a question in their mind," she said. "I don't want that five years from now every time they see Rihanna, they think of Chris Brown beating me. That's not who I am. It's just one thing that happened to me."
We're glad she's speaking out about this, but do you think she should have done this sooner?
